Thursday, January 27, 2011

2011 - The Entry

I love music, it truly gets me through the roughest of times.

Happy New Year.

Why do we consider ourselves to be larger than we really are? I don't mean size wise, but importance wise.

We truly believe that our acts and words can bring people to their knees. I don't mean we act on it, but deep down we see the demise of whomever we are having trouble with. Act as if it doesn't matter. We can't go all Nikita on them because the law does not allow us to show our aggressive side as much as we would like to show it.
I feel that for the last couple of months I’ve been holding in everything that has been bugging me. Result? Pretty bad dr. visits. The solution, detachment.

It takes a while, but I think I’m starting to go pro. Still, once in a while little things hurt like a b**ch.

Sometimes there is no point in starting fires that you will eventually need to put out. Because basically, you are the one that cares about how you feel, the rest of the world is just waiting for you to react.

I would like to throw a challenge out there…..

Are you ready?....

Don’t wait so long. Don’t cry about it. Go with your gut or you’ll end up hurting more because you knew, deep down you knew the whole time it was worthless.

I guess I can always write best after the smoke clears and the pain is less.
I hate confrontation, especially if I know it will be hard for me to hold back. Get me when I’m PMSing and I feel sorry for you. Get at me when I’m PMSing, with a vacuum in one hand, laundry in the other, bitching about getting no help.....and I would suggest you run. You’d think someone who knew me well would figure it out.

When Marco Polo was about to die, the priest asked him if the stories he told were all true. His answer: “I did not tell half of what I saw”. My daughter found this out today and I think it’s a pretty cool statement to leave.

What’s going through your mind?


Shadow said...

personally, i need time. to digest. think through. feel. before divulging anything, or know how i feel about a revelation.

SM said...

I seem to digest for days...unfortunately I should learn to let go quickly. Thanks for reading! :)

Christine Macdonald said...

Glad you finally got out whatever you needed/wanted to.

What's on my mind these days? Forgiveness and love. And concentrating on my own sh*t, instead of worrying about everybody else's.

Great post and happy birthday,

SM said...

:)It has been an interesting year for sure. A complete reboot.

Great things to have on your mind! The older we get the wiser we become ;)

Thank you for the bday wishes. I hope yours was great back in November.

Madame DeFarge said...

I am a dreadful overthinker. I really should stop thinking about things that haven't happened and start living in the moment. I'd be a lot happier if I did and I suspect that many others would be happier with me as a consequence.

SM said...

I'm like this too...time to change it up. Thanks for stopping by. Your blog always makes me hungry.

Anonymous said...

Sounds like you need a punching bag, to take out that which is being held within.

You PMSing sounds like a great show. Mind if I bring some popcorn? I promise to not make a mess or laugh too much. ;)

My mind is blank. Each day starts with a fresh canvas. Some days it ends with a great piece of work and others, not so much.

Remember don't sweat the small stuff!!


SM said...

My pms can be funny...or dangerous.

OMG my husband got the kids a punching bag....i hit it once and it hit me back - bitch! -

xox thanks D for reading ;)